things that got me through...

by shadows

January 25, 2002

old records....45's....safe music.....old friends they are...
and animals...also good friends, the best.....
and school...a place to get lost
and be anonymous
and excel because i choose to, not because i am forced
drawing
and painting
and silent lonely thoughts
and my horse, and long rides through fields and mountains
and across streams that were like milestones of life
a good school friend or two, kids like me, used and abused
but understanding.....
safe teachers
and my dad, though so far away, yet so close in my heart
and those after school jobs just to stay away from "home"
and learning to cash my checks before i went home, so she could not take it from me..it was worth the abuse for it....
green grass
flowers
the race track, with my adopted grandpa and my horse, and his horses.....my friends....
my lambs.....and my cats, and my little pups.....short-lived, but special.....
and my inside selves......my sister and brother selves.....
sigh
my T Max
my children....
my grandson......
my Jesus....
and my angel husband....
and my gallant Goliath who stood between me and abuse with the ex....
i cling to sunshine, and blue skies, and big green fields....and running brooks.....all living life......so much life.....can i finally join it now??? can i? is it time?
shadows beginning to wonder.....at last.....