Memory

by Sad Joy

January 8, 2002

Must stop the crying and screaming
That I hear inside my head
Must quiet the cries I'm hearing
I'm filled with guilt and dread

I don't know how to stop
My heart is in such pain
I feel like I will drop
Will I never sleep again?

I live it over and over,
In my memory and mind.
I try to ask forgiveness...
God's peace I can not find.

So each day I wonder
About the choice I made.
My heart is full with anguish
The memory does not fade.

Before, when I remembered,
And spoke of them out loud.
The pain and sorrow faded
But now, more pain I've found.