For those who have experienced any type of Satanic ritual abuse, this question always surfaces during therapy, or at sometime during the healing process. This is a most legitimate question. I learned long ago, not to answer for God. He is most capable and fluent in answering these extremely difficult questions. I have tried on many occasions to answer them, but my answers always fall short and rarely meet the unmet needs contained within the question. I have found it to be a pivotal question when ministering to survivors of SRA. Often they cannot move further into their healing until these important questions receive answers. Therefore, the question cannot be ignored. I have also found that the questions are often prompted by a horrific memory in their early childhood, of being led to the Lord Jesus Christ, and then being raped and abused while being asked the question: “Where is this Lord Jesus Christ you love so much? If He is so powerful, so loving, so kind, why isn’t He answering your cries for help?"  Then the abuser will read scripture verses such as Psalm 34: “The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous and His ears are open to their cry. The righteous cry out and the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles.” They will continue this type of abuse reinforcing the belief that the child is not righteous, and that is why God is not answering his/her cries for help; or that the Lord Jesus Christ really has no power; or, even worse, they will bring in someone who says that they are the real Lord Jesus Christ, and they will hurt the child also. It all serves one purpose: to demonstrate Christ’s inability to rescue, redeem and defend those He loves.  It is to drive fear and unbelief into their souls, in order to build mind control on these strongholds. Many survivors remember taking oaths, vows, agreements not to be able to see the truth, pray, read the Bible, hear from Jesus Christ, or connect with God in any manner. This makes it very difficult for them to be able to “see” God’s perception of their memories. Since we are carnal beings, we cannot see things the way God sees things, we only have the ability to see from Satan’s perspective. Since the Garden of Eden, we have experienced “spiritual blindness.”

SPIRITUAL BLINDNESS

Before sin, man and God walked together, and scripture suggests that man could see and experience the spiritual realm. God is spirit, and therefore lives in the spiritual realm. God “took the man and put him into the Garden of Eden to cultivate it and keep it” (Gen. 2:16). Adam had dominion over Eden and all that was in it, except the “tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat from it you shall surely die” (Gen. 2:17). Of course, we all know the very next chapter tells us how sin entered into the world. We lost our “spiritual eyes” in the Garden of Eden. While Eve may not have known her adversary, the Serpent, she did know God and His Word: “but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat of it you will surely die.” The Serpent came along and questioned her, “Did God really say, you must not eat from any tree in the garden?”  Already the adversary is “twisting” God’s words with lies and deception. Eve evidently knew what God said, because she responded with: “We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden, but God did say, you must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden and you must not touch it, or you will die.” We know the crafty Serpent’s response: “You will not surely die,” the serpent said to the woman, “for God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.” He wants her to question God’s motives, and, therefore, she begins to depend on herself and her own understanding rather than to trust in God’s motives and goodness. “When the woman saw that the fruit of the trees was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband who was with her, and he ate it.”

What was the immediate response? “Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they realized they were naked.”

“The eyes of them both were opened, the eyes of their consciences were opened, their hearts smote them for what they had done. They saw the happiness they had fallen from, and the misery they had fallen into. They saw a loving God provoked, his grace and favor forfeited, his likeness and image lost, dominion over the creatures gone. They saw their natures corrupted and depraved, and felt a disorder in their own spirits of which they had never before been conscious. They saw a law in their members warring against the law of their minds, and captivating them both to sin and wrath.” from Matthew Henry's Commentary on the Whole Bible: New Modern Edition)

When the eyes of mankind were opened to their consciousness and closed to the spiritual realm, what is it that they saw? “The text tells us that they saw that they were naked, that is, [1.]That they were stripped, deprived of all the honors and joys of their paradise-state, and exposed to all the miseries that might justly be expected from an angry God. They were disarmed; their defense had departed from them. [2.]That they were shamed, forever shamed, before God and angels. They saw themselves disrobed of all their ornaments and ensigns of honor, degraded from their dignity and disgraced in the highest degree, laid open to the contempt and reproach of heaven, and earth, and their own consciences. What a dishonor and disquietment sin is; it makes mischief wherever it is admitted, sets men against themselves disturbs their peace, and destroys all their comforts. Sooner or later, it will bring shame, either the shame which brings conviction and results in true repentance that ends in glory, or that shame and everlasting contempt to which the wicked shall rise at the great day. Sin is a reproach to any people. What deceiver Satan is. He told our first parents, when he tempted them, that their eyes should be opened; and so they were, but not as they understood it; they were opened to their shame and grief, not to their honor nor advantage. Therefore, when he speaks fair, believe him not. The most malicious mischievous liars often excuse themselves with this, that they only equivocate; but God will not so excuse them.” (from Matthew Henry's Commentary on the Whole Bible: New Modern Edition)

Yes, when the eyes of mankind were opened to their consciousness and closed to the spiritual realm, they were no longer able to see God. “Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as He was walking in the garden…” There are no indications that they could see God, they only heard Him. I believe that survivors state that God was not there was because they see the events of their life only from Satan’s perspective—and he does not want us to see truth.

The following are examples of God opening the eyes of those who could not see because of spiritual blindness:

Gen. 21:17-19: God heard the boy crying, and the angel of God called to Hagar from heaven and said to her, “What is the matter, Hagar? Do not be afraid; God has heard the boy crying as he lies there. Lift the boy up and take him by the hand, for I will make him into a great nation.” Then God opened her eyes and she saw a well of water. So she went and filled the skin with water and gave the boy a drink.

Gen. 22:13-14: Abraham looked up and there in a thicket he saw a ram caught by its horns (prior to his demonstrated faith that God would raise Isaac from the dead, if necessary, did he see the ram). He went over and took the ram and sacrificed it as a burnt offering instead of his son. So Abraham called that place The LORD Will Provide. And to this day it is said, “On the mountain of the LORD it will be provided.”

Ex. 3:2-4: And the Angel of the LORD appeared to him in a flame of fire from the midst of a bush. So he looked, and behold, the bush was burning with fire, but the bush was not consumed. Then Moses said, “I will now turn aside and see this great sight, why the bush does not burn.” So when the LORD saw that he turned aside to look, God called to him the midst of the bush and said, “Moses, Moses!” (An example of a supernatural occurrence that allowed Moses to be introduced to God by seeing an eternal flame.)

Num. 22:31-33: Then the LORD opened Balaam's eyes, and he saw the angel of the LORD standing in the road with his sword drawn. So he bowed low and fell face down. The angel of the LORD asked him, “Why have you beaten your donkey these three times? I have come here to oppose you because your path is a reckless one before me. The donkey saw me and turned away from me these three times. If she had not turned away, I would certainly have killed you by now, but I would have spared her.” We can see that Balaam was blinded to the spiritual realm and could not see until the Lord opened His eyes.

The following scriptures suggest that, without the Lord we are blind, but there is a promise that He will restore spiritual sight.

Isa. 35:4-5: Be strong, do not fear; your God will come, he will come with vengeance; with divine retribution he will come to save you. Then will the eyes of the blind be opened and the ears of the deaf unstopped.

Isa. 42:6-7: I, the LORD, have called you in righteousness; I will take hold of your hand. I will keep you and will make you to be a covenant for the people and a light for the Gentiles (pagans without the Lord), to open eyes that are blind, to free captives from prison and to release from the dungeon those who sit in darkness.

Isa. 42:16: I will bring the blind by a way they did not know; I will lead them in paths they have not known. I will make darkness light before them, and crooked places straight. These things I will do for them, and not forsake them.

The scriptures help us to understand that when we do not know the Lord or when we are far from Him we cannot “see” the things that He would want us to see and understand.

Lam. 5:15-17: Joy is gone from our hearts; our dancing has turned to mourning. The crown has fallen from our head. Woe to us, for we have sinned! Because of this our hearts are faint, because of these things our eyes grow dim. 
Not only are we spiritually blind, but we are robbed of our joy when we are separated from the Lord.

Ez. 12:1-2: The word of the LORD came to me: Son of man, you are living among a rebellious people. They have eyes to see but do not see and ears to hear but do not hear, for they are a rebellious people.  
How true this is for survivors of Satanic ritual abuse. They have been raised by a rebellious people, and have learned rebellious ways, and this verse tells us that in our rebellion we are both blind and unable to hear truth.

Isa. 29:9-10: Pause and wonder! Blind yourselves and be blind! They are drunk, but not with wine; they stagger, but not with intoxicating drink. For the LORD has poured out on you the spirit of deep sleep, and has closed your eyes, namely, the prophets; and He has covered your heads, namely, the seers.

Isa. 59:10-15: Like the blind we grope along the wall, feeling our way like men without eyes. At midday we stumble as if it were twilight; among the strong, we are like the dead. We all growl like bears; we moan mournfully like doves. We look for justice, but find none; for deliverance, but it is far away. For our offenses are many in your sight, and our sins testify against us. Our offenses are ever with us, and we acknowledge our iniquities: rebellion and treachery against the LORD, turning our backs on our God, fomenting oppression and revolt, uttering lies our hearts have conceived. So justice is driven back, and righteousness stands at a distance; truth has stumbled in the streets, honesty cannot enter. Truth is nowhere to be found, and whoever shuns evil becomes a prey. 
There are many nuggets of truth in these verses. Lack of repentance brings injustice and lack of honesty and truth. Also it states that, when we shun evil, we then become a prey for those who love evil.

The promise for spiritual sight was fulfilled with the coming of the Lord Jesus Christ.

Matt. 11:4-5: Jesus answered and said to them, “Go and tell John the things which you hear and see: the blind see and the lame walk; the lepers are cleansed and the deaf hear; the dead are raised up and the poor have the gospel preached to them.”

Matt. 12:22: Then one was brought to Him who was demon-possessed, blind and mute; and He healed him, so that the blind and mute man both spoke and saw.

Matt. 15:30-31: Then great multitudes came to Him, having with them the lame, blind, mute, maimed, and many others; and they laid them down at Jesus' feet, and He healed them. So the multitude marveled when they saw the mute speaking, the maimed made whole, the lame walking, and the blind seeing; and they glorified the God of Israel.

Matt. 20:32-34: So Jesus stood still and called them, and said, “What do you want Me to do for you?” They said to Him, "Lord, that our eyes may be opened.” So Jesus had compassion and touched their eyes. And immediately their eyes received sight, and they followed Him.

Mk. 10:51-52: So Jesus answered and said to him, “What do you want Me to do for you?” The blind man said to Him, “Rabboni, that I may receive my sight.” Then Jesus said to him, “Go your way; your faith has made you well.” And immediately he received his sight and followed Jesus on the road.

Rev. 3:17-18: Because you say, “I am rich, have become wealthy, and have need of nothing” - and do not know that you are wretched, miserable, poor, blind, and naked. I counsel you to buy from Me gold refined in the fire, that you may be rich; and white garments, that you may be clothed, that the shame of your nakedness may not be revealed; and anoint your eyes with eye salve, that you may see.

Our ability to know, see and understand truth (past, present and future) comes from the restoration that comes through our relationship to the Lord Jesus Christ. Where was God when you were being hurt? I would suggest that you ask the following questions, in order to understand and know the truth concerning all aspects of your memories:

1. Identity your feelings around the event being remembered (fear, anger, rage, terror, numbness, etc.)

2. I would suggest that you pray to the Lord Jesus Christ, who came in the Flesh (1 Jn. 4:2), and ask Him to prepare your mind by binding away any demonic spirits that might try to interfere with their lies and distortions. If you were made to take any oaths, ask Him to bring them to your mind so that you might give the oaths to Him and ask Him to annul them by the power and blood of the Lord Jesus Christ that covers all your sins and transgressions (i.e. not to know the truth, not to see, not to believe, denial, forgetfulness, dissociation, etc). Invite Him to announce to the spirit realm that all “codes and regulations” that are being held against you were nailed to the cross (Col. 2:14).

3. Invite the Lord Jesus Christ, who came in the Flesh, to take you to the source and origin of where you first felt that feeling to that intensity and show the event from His perspective. When you begin to see, sense, or just have an understanding of what that might be… ask Him to take away anything that may not be from Him. There may be personalities that are giving you their perspective (which is important), but you want all parts of your mind to see the event from His perspective.

4. Ask Him to help you understand what He wants you to know about this event (any lies, oaths, allegiances, bondages that keep you believing lies and distortions about self, others, Him, etc).

5. Ask Him to show you where He was during this event. The Bible clearly states that there is nothing that He does not know about or “see.”

2 Chr. 16:9: For the eyes of the LORD run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose heart is loyal to Him.

Job 34:21-22: For His eyes are on the ways of man, and He sees all his steps. There is no darkness nor shadow of death where the workers of iniquity may hide themselves.

Job 36:7: He does not withdraw His eyes from the righteous.

Ps. 34:15-16: The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous, and His ears are open to their cry. The face of the LORD is against those who do evil.

Prov. 15:3: The eyes of the LORD are in every place, keeping watch on the evil and the good.

These verses help us understand that there is nowhere we can go to be out of His presence. There never has been any event in my life or your life that He has not been there. Of course, the question is, “Why didn’t He help?” Until a person can look at the memories through the eyes of truth (the Lord’s perception), then not all of the truth has been revealed. There is only one source of truth, and, until His truth is known throughout one's memories, no freedom can come.

Jn. 8:32: Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.

Jn. 14:6: Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life."